Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Can I just say anxiety is annoying?


Yes, I'm being tacky and using an obviously not-free stock photo, watermark and all...but I like it, it looks like me.

I am sitting here, trying to understand a difficult scientific journal article so that I can review it for a class. (This is due Tuesday at noon.) I have been struggling to understand the durn thing for two hours. And it just wasn't working.

Finally I just told myself, ok, just start writing the stupid paper and maybe it will come together. For some seemingly-inane reason, I suddenly understand the paper. Which I'm glad about, but I'm annoyed at the two-plus hours I've wasted already...

Grrrr!!!

Therapy and medication are certainly helping me grow in leaps and bounds, but to quote Veruca Salt, "I want it NOW!"

Heavenly Father, please remind me why I'm not allowed to be perfect yet? What was it I was supposed to learn in this life???


3 comments:

Lisa said...

Ive had to learn a lot of patience about wanting things right now....the problem is I want the patience right now too!

Grandma Caroline said...

Hi Mae,
I think we must really be related. I spent about 3 hours cleaning up my office just so I could type! That's my anxiety. I can't think in chos, it's my 'cross to bear'. Thanks goodness for therape and drugs!

Annessa said...

I love it! That's the story of my life in a nutshell!